newbie postie

As I've mentioned earlier in my previous posts, I've signed up with payperpost, I've seen this from one of the blogs that I've read and when I checked out their website, it seemed really interesting. I mean, getting paid by just blogging about the things I love? Isn't that great? I've also read some testimonials from people who are already members of payperpost (well, they call their members postie) and I've heard a lot of good feedbacks from them. One of their top bloggers have already earned around $13,000++. Amazing, right? And all you have to do is just sign up and blog about the things you love.

And so I signed up and here I am blogging while earning money on the side. =) It's a wonderful opportunity since financial matters are really tight these days and we all need some extra moolah to splurge on those things that we love but sometimes couldn't afford because budget won't permit us to buy it. Payperpost is a great way to earn and it's like a part-time job. You don't even have to go to any office. Everything can be done via the internet. Hopefully, more posts will be approved from my blog so I can finally purchase that digital camera I have wanted for so long.

You too can earn by just blogging. Just click the link above or just refer to my sidebar and you can now start blogging while earning! =)

feeling a little better

After 2 days of being bed-ridden, I'm finally up and about and back at work! I'm still not fully well though. Last night, I experienced shortness of breath again. Today, I'm hoping that I'm really on my way to recovery. I haven't had any relapse in terms of fever so far today.

As SO pointed out last night, it's high time I take vitamins that are complete with nutrients. Para ngang nasa commercial sya while he was explaining to me the importance of vitamins. With my kind of lifestyle, he told me that it's not enough that I take vitamin C only. So from now on, since I don't want any repeat of what transpired the past 2 days, I will be taking complete vitamins and will vow to drink lots and lots of water.

It's weekend again! Time to rest and recharge! =)

earning while blogging

As you can see in my previous post and in my sidebar, I have decided to also earn from blogging. Hehe. Times like these, we all need a little more sideline for extra cash right? So I decided to join Payperpost and try to earn a little by just blogging. If you also want to join just click on the link in my sidebar. I haven't earned anything yet as I've only started today and they have yet to approve the post that I've written below. If you want to know more of this opportunity just click on the link ok. =)

math tutors

I have always liked math. In fact, I took up BS Math when I was in college. I just hope my future kids will be able to acquire my ability on numbers. However, if they won't I'm sure that they will be able to enjoy learning math from math tutors. Their math program not only helps children in their problem solving skills but also teach them to be confident in their abilities. Their trained Academic Directors are all equipped to help children make math more fun and enjoyable for them.

despite being sick..

Here I am blogging my time away! hehe.. I'll get off the puter and rest as soon as I finish this post and as soon as I finished uploading pictures in my multiply account (see sidebar). I haven't been updating the photos section for a couple of months already.

Anyway, here's a text message sent a long time ago by a good friend which seemed appropriate last night and earlier this morning.. "One of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something you thought was unquestionable". Indeed, I had my bouts of confusion last night which spilled over when I woke up early this morning. There are no perfect situation. You just have to learn to deal with certain "circumstances" because you are left with no choice but to cope. I got scared of this certain "circumstance" (is there such a word?). And anxiety (and a little bit of irritation) just washed over me that the only solution I can think of was to get out. Fortunately, my good friend whacked me back to reality and a 1 hour talk with her convinced me that the solution I was thinking of is not the best solution yet. Another emo moment. Hehe. =)

I will now rest. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a healthier day for me! Gud night pips!

down with flu

For the nth time this year, I caught the virus again. The constant fatigue and lack of sleep might be the one causing my immune system to be so weak that it has become vulnerable to these sort of diseases. If I'm not mistaken, every month I've been having this viral disease. I'm so tired of the constant fever, colds every month! To think that I'm taking 1ooomg of vitamin c everyday! I do need some better time management so I can squeeze in some R&R activities.

magic night

image from harrypotter.warnerbros.com

Last night, I joined the bandwagon and watched the 5th installment of harry potter. I actually enjoyed the movie despite the negative reviews I've heard (I know of one officemate who slept throughout the film). The reason I enjoyed it maybe because, first there aren't a lot of people watching at the Block in SM North and second, I've already forgotten what transpired in book 5. There's the suspense factor which kept me glued on the movie and since I've forgotten what I read, I wouldn't know if they deleted some of the good parts in the book.

The kids in the movie who used to be cute and small are now in their teen years and are growing up quite fast! I wonder how grown up they will be in Part 6. =) Anyway, the one scene that I particularly hate is (warning spoiler ahead!) the Cho Chang and Harry Potter's kissing scene. It kept me wondering whether they really kissed in the book or not. The scene is a put off in the movie and it somehow ruined my perception of Cho Chang. I mean, she was still supposed to be grieving of Cedric's death right? Bitter? =)

But still, I think my 130 pesos for this movie is still worth it. =)

home improvements

By home, I mean my cyberhome. Hehe.. I'm now trying to improve my blogsite since I've somewhat announced of its existence in my friendster account. Previously, it was meant for a few eyes only but now I think it's about time that this blog takes the centerstage. Haha.. Kidding. Anyway, I've already added some new features in my sidebar. Check out my tagboard! Don't forget to leave a message ok. =)

Now, if only I can get to edit the lay out of my "about me" page element. I feel such a newbie to this html stuff. To think that I already have this blog since 2004! Anybody willing to teach this newbie on how to fix this site? =)

quick post

I'm off to school in a short while. This is a make up session for our business law class since June 11 was declared a holiday. I realized from this class that I can never be a lawyer. Too much reading for my attention span of 5 seconds. haha.. So Faith, I'm leaving all the legal details of my future business to you! =)

rambling...again

I've been meaning to write about a lot of things lately I just can't find the time to do so. Everytime I come home, I would always plan on blogging something but as soon as my back hits the comforts of my bed, I'm off to dreamland. So now I'm left with incoherent thoughts as I try to recall the things I want to blog about.

Anyway, I miss the beach! Yep, it's been a while. I think the last time I had a glimpse of my favorite place was when I was on our department planning session. I would love to go beach bumming again anytime soon!

I'm so sleepy. Will try to blog longer posts next time! Ciao!

still here

Still alive but work is up until my neck. School work is demanding a lot of my time lately as well. I hardly have to time to just stop and smell the flowers. Hehe.. Sleeping has become a luxury these past few weeks. I realized I only have 2 free nights in one week. That is, Tuesdays and Thursdays, and I like to spend these nights with my girlfriends so there are really no room to just slack off and bum around doing nothing. I need to manage my time better lest I want to turn into a zombie with my eyebags.

I can't make this long. There are tons to do with so little time. I'll come up with a better post next time. =)

random-ness

Just got back from Cabanatuan. Tired but happy. Ang masasabi ko lang... magpapatayo ako ng Starbucks sa Nueva Ecija! I was craving for a chocolate cream today and so we thought of finding a Starbucks nearby. I texted a friend of a classmate who's from Cabanatuan and told me (to my surprise and dismay) that there's no Starbucks in the city. Huwat? Wala rin coffeeshop dun sa mall. Kaya baka pumatok ang business if ever magpatayo ako ng coffeeshop dun.

Speaking of business, I'm planning to venture into a business of some sort. Secret muna what it is. If things go right on the planning side, we just might go full scale next year. =) I'll reveal once everything is settled. I just hope the energy and will power that we have right now to venture into this business will not diminish after a few months. Exciting!

I also have one more sideline. Hehe. Investment naman un. I'll also let you guys know if it's ok (i just started with the investment) para sama sama tayong magkaron ng extra moolah! Pang-lakwatsa. Yey!

That's it for now. I just got home from a 3 hour trip and here I am blogging my time away. Hehe.. I still have readings for Business Law that I have to read. Lagot. Recitation pa naman un. It's time to sleep. Ciao!

Tagged!

Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!

tagged by faith

1. kaladkarin ako.. take me anywhere and i'd be willing to tag along

2.lakwatsera to the core. malapit ko ng malibot ang pilipinas. =) exag!

3.i love the beach but i don't like getting dark.

4.i've already conquered the mountains and i want to try scuba diving next.

5. i love to hang out at starbucks but i don't drink coffee. tall chocolate cream for me!

6. i'm an only child

7. but i'm not a brat

i tag kharol, kiel, nica, roger, reish and lala

off from work

I've been having neck pains since yesterday and I even have a small lump right under my left jaw. I was initially thinking alaxan will eventually make this go away but come late last night, I was already chilling with fever. I got alarmed and was asking everybody if this lump is mumps (beke). My tita was actually inisisting it is. And to further add to my dilemma, she had been stressing that beke will make me infertile. Huwat? I refuse to believe that and so I called my ever reliable friend with regards to the medical field (thanks Kharen!) and asked her if it was true. Apparently, it only applies to guys. Oops! So if ever I did have mumps, I can bid farewell to my weekend plans with J.

And so with still a slight fever, I begged off from work today and proceeded to see the doctor with my mom. I just heaved a sigh of relief when upon seeing the lump, the doctor's questions geared towards colds and tonsilitis. Apparently, the lump was too low to be mumps. A few weeks ago, I already had the worst case of tonsilitis and the company doctor advised me to take antibiotic for 1 week. When I was feeling a little better during the 3rd day, I stopped taking the meds. My druggist friend told me not to do that. The reason the doctor advised me to take it for 1 week is to make sure the bacteria will be completely gone because if my sickness reoccurs, the bacteria would now have antibodies for that medicine. So now, I am paying the price of my previous actions. The bacteria is still there and it caused this lump to form in my neck. The doctor gave me antibiotics again and this time, I swear, all 14 tablets will be consumed in a week. =)

Why am I still smiling despite being sick? Because it's not mumps! Because tonsilitis is better to deal with than to stay 1 week at home doing nothing so as not to contaminate anyone else. And this also means, weekend plans are still pushing through and the loads of work waiting for me at the office would not have to wait 1 week before it's done.

renewing ties

After J's 3 month extended vacation. He's now in Nueva Ecija undergoing yet another training before going to the real battlefield. Since I now have so much time in my hands, I tried to put my life back together again. Not that it was ruined when J was here. I somehow set aside other aspects of my life just so I can maximize my time with J. When he was here, I almost always leave the office by 5:30. Leaving me with too much pending work. So I went to the office last saturday to make up for that. I still have a lot of things to do but I'm now trying to accomplish those one by one.

Next thing I did was to bond with my girl friends again. Bonding time with them was also cut off because of everyday dating and weekends spent together with J. I still got to see them every once in a while during the past 3 months but it's not the same girl talk whenever our SO's are around. So, first thing I did was to meet up with my friend and spent the night in their house. Something I haven't done in ages.

With all the activities lined up for me and with all the plans waiting to be executed, this somehow lessens my loneliness and it's quite healthy that things are happening this way. My negative feelings are being translated to positive things. Which is good. For me and, I think, for our relationship. I realized I learned my lesson. The lesson that took a lot of tears. I can now see it's purpose. =)

on goodbyes, changes and new beginnings...

J and I were talking last night about his new life when he reports to his division. I can sense that he's a bit sad about it although he doesn't want to show it. I feel for him. I know that it will be a different story as compared to their life in PMA. Gone are the days of just worrying about duties, demerits, touring hours and what nots. J have always been telling me that life is indeed easier as a cadet. Although there's no freedom when you're inside the academy, everything is taken cared of when you're there. After their graduation, they were finally freed from the rules inside PMA but it also meant being responsible for everything that you do with that freedom. It also meant looking after yourself as there will be no tac-o's, commandants, instructors to look after your every move from then on.

Getting deployed also meant separation from his mistah (term they use for their batchmates). After 4 years of being together 24/7 inside the academy, they will now be distributed across the country. Just the thought of it saddens me. I even joke him na ako yung nalulungkot para sa kanya. Goodbyes are always difficult. Though I know J had already set his mind that this will happen eventually, I can feel his sadness when he talks about his mistahs leaving the barracks to go to their assignments. Ako pa nga yung naiiyak. I've somehow got to bond with some of his mistahs over the past couple of months. I've been with them in out of town trips and occassional dinners and gimiks. I had a glimpse of what they were like and how bonded they are with each other. For that short time I was with them, I can say that I'm going to miss them... how much more for J. But he (and all of his batchmates) don't have a choice but to move on. This bittersweet phase will soon be replaced by the reality that lies ahead. The reality that I'm having difficulty getting to terms with.

As the cliche goes, for every ending there's always a beginning. They will now be beginning their life as junior officers of the Philippine Army. Challenging is an understatement to describe their line of work. Nevertheless, I have faith in them that they would be responsible officers of our country. To the Maragtas Class, good luck! Make us proud! =)

after you go...

I can catch up on my reading... After you go, i'll have a lot more room for sleeping... and so the song goes.

No. We're not breaking up. He's just bound for deployment anytime soon and it's causing me this big rock down my throat. I can't help but get teary eyed every once in a while. I know I have to be strong. For him and more especially for myself. I've been through this. I should know the drill. We will only be 3 hours apart. Last time I was in the same dilemma, the separation meant 1 year of not seeing each other. This time, it SHOULD be easier. But it's not.

The thought that I've been setting aside for the past 3 months is slowly happening. If only there's a guide book on how to survive being a soldier's girlfriend. It pains me that his line of work will entail a lot of risks. I don't know if I'm ready for that. I should have known this the moment I decided to commit to him. I thought I was ready but when reality slowly dawns on you, it bites. Hard. Harder than I thought.

I am grateful though. For the 3 months that we spent together without any restrictions on going back to the barracks by 10 pm. Or restrictions on going to the mall. We were able to do things that normal couples do. Go on dates. Watch movies. See each other after work. Spend weekends together. Go on fights personally and not just through phone calls. It should have only been 2 months break but the elections proved to be a blessing in disguise resulting to an extended stay in Fort Boni.

We are now facing the hard truth. That he'll be fighting for the good of the country anytime soon. I am proud of what he does but it scares the hell out of me everytime I think about it. So we decided that everytime he'll be on an operation and will not be able to contact me, I will just think that he's just on duty. Just like his PMA days when he can't text during classes.

This will be a whole new battle. Let's see what will happen this time.

bad day

I'm starting to hate this day. And we're only half way through. Everything about this day is just plain (pardon the word) irritating. Maybe it's the gloomy weather or my approaching pms.

I want to do a lot of things. New things. Maybe this time I'm completely tired of being in my comfort zone. It's time to test new waters once again. After all, life won't be exciting without these "take life" activities every once in a while.

Changes will be happening. Soon.

splashed!

I just got back from an out of town trip with J and his mistahs. We went to Splash Mountain in Laguna. I'm still beat from all the splashing that we did! haha. The trip was all fun, fun, fun! Thanks to his crazy friends who were all good sport and made us laugh the entire trip!

The place is, by the way, super nice! It has a pool inside the room. In our pictures it looked more of a jacuzzi. Will try to post pictures as soon as Frank has downloaded it from his camera.

Will sign off now. Hope you all had a great weekend as well.

paying off debts

I have 4 credit cards. Yep. You read it right. f-o-u-r. 4 years ago, I started with one credit card wherein I pay off every purchase every month. In other words, zero balance. Then I started to learn to only pay half of the amount. That's when all my problems began. Interest and new purchases just kept on piling up that I have to avail of a new card for a balance transfer. After paying off the transfered amount, I have this tendency to use the card again. Sheesh! I have absolutely no discipline when it comes to my expenses.

Right now, I'm trying to start making the first step towards liberation of my credit cards. It will be a long and tedious process but I know it will be worth it in the end so I can really start to save up. Good luck to me. =P

sweet surprise

I love love surprises! And boy was I in for a sweet surprise last night.

I was with J last night. We have been going out every night while he's staying in Fort Boni and we try to maximize every day as much as possible before his deployment in Nueva Ecija sometime late May or early June.

Anyway, we were having our usual conversation when he told me sweetly that he has something for me. This is not usual of him as the first and only thing he gave me before was a cadet doll. I was totally surprised when the gift was the mini version of his class seal pendant. Ain't he sweet? I usually don't get surprises from him so when he does, I'm totally swept off my feet! Cheesy I know pro pagbigyan nyo ko, in lab e! *big grin*

bora part 2?

My friend texted me early last night inviting me to go to Boracay on June 7-10. Accomodation will be free since I will be sneaking in their room. Hehe. The invite is sooooo tempting. I enjoyed my holyweek getaway there and a part 2 a month later is an offer I can't hardly resist. But I have to consider my expenses as well. There are still a lot of out of town trips lined up for the coming weeks and I still have to consider our Palawan trip on September that I have to save up for.

Haaay! Anybody willing to sponsor me? Hehe.. Pengeng pera! =P

PL department outing

We just had our department outing cum planning session in Laiya Batangas. The place is nice, although the room is a bit small for 6 people. Well, the girls in our department had to sleep in one room while the 3 boys are in the cottage just beside ours. The price of the cottages is a bit steep. Good thing we don't have to pay for it!

I realized I cannot work by the beach. I've always associated the beach with relaxing and bumming around that making my mind work during the planning session proved to be a great struggle. We finished the planning session by 12 midnight and we drank like crazy after. Hehe.. Bumabawi lang sa stress.

It was fun although I hoped we had more time to dip in the waters. For pictures, just visit my multiply account http://bernagutierrez.multiply.com

i hope this will make sense

i dunno how to begin... i've been asking the Lord for the past few weeks to give me enough reason to let go... i think He already did... problem is, I can't find a place in my heart where I do want to let go... it's already screaming at me... i'm hurt... i'm disillusioned... i don't want to trust anymore... but my heart is telling me otherwise... could it be? that it's wrong again... just the same way that it was wrong when this same heart was screaming two years ago that i was meant to be with this somebody... i dunno... maybe i shouldn't trust my heart anymore... for it knows nothing of logic... but how do i start to let my mind rule when these past months... i did let my heart take the wheel... i'm blinded... maybe... can somebody lead me? i'm lost... yet again...

keeping this blog alive...

It's 2 am in the morning. I have LOTS and LOTS of school stuff to do and here I am wasting my time making a new entry. The past month has been pretty crazy! I've been running around like a headless chicken trying to maximize his 1-month break. Sickness caught up during the later part due to lack of sleep and trying to balance a lot of things all at the same time. No regrets though, it's when you lose control that you feel alive.

I have a lot of cleaning up to do though. From my finances to my work to catching up with friends again. Spending quality time with SO lessened those bonding time with my best buds.

So what did I do for the past month?

Spent 4 days in Baguio for his graduation -- the activities for the graduation made me wake up at 5 am in the morning! to think I'm supposed to be on vacation!

3 days in Puerto Galera - went snorkelling this time and rode the banana boat for the first time!

5 glorious days in Boracay - thanks to the 5-day weekend I was able to finally set foot on the sands of Boracay. Quiet expensive though as the plan was only formulated when we were just waiting for his flight back to Cagayan de Oro. Talk about spontaneity at its finest!

3 days in Baguio - this time it's for business reasons. he has to settle some papers before his first day of work. Quite tiring. The 3rd day tested our patience to the highest level. Nothing seemed to be going right that day. Thank goodness it's over and we managed to get out of it alive. =P


So there.. no pictures though.. maybe next time.

I now need to go back and finish my paper for Management Principles. Aaargh.. I can't wait for my 6-week vacation from school!!! No more saturday classes for me next time!

sometimes i wonder..

Kung talagang masokista ako. That I always find myself in situations that are so hard and yet I can't seem to get out of it or I choose not to get out of it. Nachachallenge ba ko? Or maybe I just don't want changes to happen. Ewan. I always choose the hard way.. Aaargh.. Gusto ko ng iuntog ang ulo ko sa pader.. hay...

ayoko na yata

I'm pms-ing again.

I think.

I hope.

Otherwise...

I'm doomed.

I think I need a change.

Whatever change it is.

I don't know.

As usual.

I don't know what I want again.

Or i know it, I'm just afraid to go for it.

Because going for it might mean...

Letting go.

reminder to self

... change is inevitable, people change so learn to deal with it
... patience is a virtue
... if you do good to others, it will come back to you a 100 fold
... loving him includes accepting and learning to deal with his work in the future.. the very near future
... never be too needy. keep yourself busy (im busy enough as it is. maybe I have to do more activities.. ung walang tulugan)
... playing around will do no good
... have faith that whatever He thinks you need know, He will show you

mark your calendar

date: September 21-24, 2007

destination:

PALAWAN baby! =)

summer's here!

Yipee! I'm not really a fan of basking in the sun and getting a tan (well, for obvious reasons.. di naman ako ganun kaputi! haha) but I do love the beach and I love seeing the beach in it's full glory during summer season! And since it's the first day of March, I can't help but feel giddy on all those upcoming outings! I haven't purchased a new swimsuit yet. I better get one soonest lest prices go sky-rocketing come April.

One of my personal goal each year is to go somewhere I've never been to. Last year, I went to 2 new places. Cebu and Bohol. This year, I'm really targetting on finally stepping on the sands of Boracay. Most of my officemates are actually surprised whenever I tell them I haven't been in that glorious beach. Sa sobrang lakwachera ko daw kasi, dapat yun daw ang beach na inuuna ko! =P So, I'm really setting my eyes on a Bora (lagot ako kay Mo!) get-away this summer. Me and my high school friends are now scouting for cheap packages. We are setting our maximum budget to 15k (all-in). It would be better if we can lower that to 10k but this could mean "de lata" meals all through out our stay. haha!

I'm really excited! Plus, I'd have a looooong vacation before I start my classes again for next school year. Isn't that great?! Summer here I come!