Monday, October 8, 2007

on motherhood

The past week that I was sick, my mom was the one taking care of me extensively. She would wake up in the middle of the night when I'm throwing up ready with hot water to ease the stomach pains. My mom took time off from her busy schedule to focus on me and make sure that I have everything I need all the time. If you know my mom, you know how busy she can get and how tight her schedule can be.

Almost every request, I always get immediately and without any hesitation or complaint from her. She even volunteered to sleep beside me so she can look after me throughout the night.

I was overwhelmed by all these. It's the first time in so many years that I was taken cared of like that again. It was like I was a kid all over again. Well, it's the first time actually that I had a case this sensitive ever since I started working.

I felt the unconditional love in its truest sense of the word from my mom. And I'm really really grateful for it. I'm actually teary-eyed right now just writing about it. Makes me think about me being a mother. Will I be able to give even half as much as what my mom gives me? Will I be able to give that unconditional love despite my child being a headache at times (well, a lot of times actually). Will I be that patient? I'm not really sure. Can I a be as superwoman as my mom? I'd be glad if I will be able to do even half of what she does.


jishinka said...

that is so sweet. iba tlaga love ng mommy, pero siguro din your mom realized that this is might be the last chance she'll do it for you before you embark on a new phase of your life. I loved it when you said: "She even volunteered to sleep beside me so she can look after me throughout the night." Sooobbraa sweet! Well, you will always be her baby berna whatever happens naman.ü

don't worry honey, you will be a good mama. I haven't been one (and am not sure if I want to be one. hehe) pero sabi ng mga friends ko instinct daw tlaga. Certified ung dalawang un na ayaw sa bata, pero nung naging nanay...ayun! We'll have our share of experiences...maybe you'll know when you're there oredi.

just make the most of the time left for you and your mom. Take her out on a date, at least before you say those two words. ;) girl, bonding.ü

hugs for you, friend.

berna said...

With everything that has been happening lately, lalo kaming nagbabond ng mom ko. =)

nwy, bket naman you're not sure if you want to be a mom! ano ka ba.. kelangan ipakalat ang magandang lahi! =)