Ever had a bad day but you really can't pinpoint which reasons are causing you to feel this crappy. Well today is that day...for me. I feel down and sad and angry and frustrated and heavy-hearted. In short, not so good feelings. I really hate it when days like these are here. Life is too short to sulk but today I just can't help but feel...hopeless. Of everything. Not that there are major reasons to feel hopeless or something (geesh! Am i making sense here?). Again, there are a LOT of things to be thankful for, however, the crappy things are the ones that are being highlighted today. I don't know why. Maybe I'm pms-ing. Ah, yes.. PMS. The answer to all those mood problems. I don't think I have felt like this in a long time. Maybe it's the idle time that I have right now that's causing this? For the past few months or so, my weekends have been fully booked. It was only now that I was forced to stay home for my full recovery of the flu that I had last week.
Well, last night I went out with my friends and it was fun having to meet up with them again but I couldn't enjoy it completely (read: no alcohol for the night) because of my fear of relapse so I just contented myself with iced tea and water and lots and lots of greasy food. hehe. But on this very sunny Sunday, I can't go out. I choose not to get out so I can be recharged for the upcoming week that will most likely be hectic.
I think I need another beach vacation. If my finances will just permit me, I'll go to Boracay in a heartbeat. But since I can't do that for now, let me just rant. And I do hope these negative feelings will disappear soon.